I’ve never been competitive when it came to sports. I’ve done plenty of sports up through high school, such as tennis, lacrosse, gymnastics, ballet, swimming, and soccer. I never stuck with one sport for a certain amount of time. I would start one thing, quit and then move on to another sport. It wasn’t until my junior of High School that I “found” yoga.
I took my first vinyasa yoga class at a gym that I was working at and wanted to take use of my free membership. I always thought of yoga as another class that would help me stay in shape. I was constantly looking in the mirror to make sure I had the perfect form and went to numerous classes just to burn off some calories. I put myself into uncomfortable positions that my body was not ready for. I wanted to be a perfectionist when it came to yoga. I wanted to get the pose right the first time and I wanted to be able to do a handstand without the wall. During these classes I always heard my instructors talk about patience and acceptance, and I never knew what they were talking about. This made me question yoga even more and I wanted to learn more about it.
It wasn’t for the purpose of staying in shape or looking fit, I wanted to learn more about the practice of yoga. I wanted to understand what my instructors meant by patience and acceptance. These past 4 years I’ve learned yoga is a slow process of learning your body. Learning its limits and its strengths. Yoga is about a process not perfection and I’ve fallen in love with the process of loving and accepting my strengths and weaknesses. Welcoming your insecurities and weaknesses is part of growing mentally and physically, and I try to apply this throughout all the areas of my life.